Baby is still here, yeah! But the judge/6 month review will be later this month to determine if he will stay as a foster placement for a few more months while his parents get housing or if he will move into an adoption placement. He would still stay but the paperwork would differ. His parents truly do love him but they have their struggles so only time will tell.
Devastation you ask, yes, August will never be the same for me. My mom, who has live with us since Korbin was just a few years old had some dental work done and complained that the assistant didn’t do a good enough job auctioning so she felt like she was inhaling pieces of tooth. Her asthma started acting up and after almost a week she went to the doctor. Her lungs sounded clear so he gave her asthma meds and sent her on her way. A little over a week later she was still pretty sick. She went back tot the doc and he gave her antibiotics because she had a fever. By this time she is still sick so she starts researching and realizes that the filling was a good 35 years old or older and that she is showing symptoms of mercury poisoning. She was throwing up and having difficulty breathing. She found a clinic nearby that did chelation therapy and she made an appointment to they and get these heavy metals out of her. She went to two appointments in the course of two weeks and then started having severe shortness of breath. A few weeks ago she called 911 because she feared if she went to sleep she wouldn’t wake up. The EMTs took her in and I stayed with my kids. I woke after a collective few hoursof sleep, took the kids to school and visitation for the baby and headed to the hospital. She was admitted into the ICU which completely scared me, because after 12 hours she should have been in a regular room. That day they took a ct scan and saw nodules on her lungs. They took a biopsy that night and had results in a day that is was advanced lung cancer. My mom never smoked a day in her life so we were very schocked. She didn’t want to start chemo so I called every treatment clinic I could find, even Mexico and the cancer was too fast, faster than natural treatments. She started chemo the next day and before a week was out she was not progressing in the right direction. She died with me and my aunt by her side at 6:30 am on August 23. I still feel like I’m in shock and I’m scared that once the reality fully hits I won’t be able to function. I now have two kids, one who may not even stay and I have my mom gone. Shes missing all their antics and development. It’s terrible! It’s truly terrible. Over time I know this will be my outlet, so there may be less small people focus and more me, me, me focus. I have a ton of support but that doesn’t bring my mom back.
YOu’re absolutely right, Melanie. Not until Jehovah tells her to wake up and come on out will you have your mom back. But, that is something to truly look forward to. Staying busy in kingdom activities and association is your best friend right now. And, of course, your little’ns will help with the staying busy at home part. This system of things can’t last much longer, so, hang in there. If you need to talk or just want to get it off your mind, this is a good place to do that. We’ll be ‘listening’. May Jehovah lighten the load of grief and help to sustain you through it.
Oh Honey. I hate that I am not able to be in touch with you and help you in any way that I can. Your mother was a big part of your life and I am so, so sorry for your loss. I can’t even imagine. I am praying that you and your family will have the strength and support that you need. It may not be long until you see her again–only Jehovah knows. But the truth is that you will. Just try to focus on that as much as you can. It won’t stop you from missing her…nothing will. Lean upon Jehovah as I know you are and continue to lean on the friends for support. Love to you and your precious family.
Melinda Palmer